August 28th, 2008 |
My first night alone with the Bug did not go well.
I got her to bed by 9 o’clock, and I was thinking I had success. Things were off to a good start. And I followed her to bed within thirty minutes, knowing that even the best case scenario had me getting less sleep than usual.
Well, I didn’t see the clock the first time she woke up, but I think it was around twelve. Again, things were looking good. C fussed and I bolted out of bed. I patted her on the back for a minute, and she was back in the land of wink, blink, and nod.
Within an hour, though, she was fussing again. This time she was already standing up in her bed when I got to it, so I pulled her in bed beside me and gave her a bottle.
That’s when things completely ceased to go well. C clearly understood that her mother wasn’t there, and it was equally clear that she wasn’t happy about it, either. By four o’clock, I, too, was unhappy that Katie wasn’t there. I think I even started to imagine that she was there. I could almost see her, and I wanted to say, like she occasionally has said to me, “Katie … you’ve got to take a turn.”
But she did get back to sleep, albeit fitfully. For the last hour and a half of potential sleep, C slept very fitfully. If I moved, she fussed, or she would sit up and the flop back down. It wasn’t pretty, and I feel every bit of it.
Lucky for me, Katie will be back tonight, and I can’t wait to see the look on the Bug’s face when she sees her mama for the first time in nearly two days.
Tags:
baby,
exhaustion,
parenting,
sleep,
the Bug